Who am I???

Who am I???
My presence on this earth is defined by the name given to me, by the parents who had chosen this name from the thousands of names. My presence on this earth is marked by the name of the country I born in. I realized my presence when some one call me by my name, when some one relate me with my birth place, with my religion, with my caste. Is it me… who is captured by these dimensions? These dimensions are never designed by me. I can get away from this but what will be my identity.
A friend, a son, a husband, a father... is it what I am?
Born in May 1982, I am traveled a long way to reach here. Today I am searching for those days, I am trying to figure it out … I am trying to remember…how the days were? I could see the drowsy images of the past… I could see the images which are marked by some unusual dimensions… the other pictures are faded away with times.
Who am I?.. if I could not see myself in the past.
If I don’t ask this question today I may ask this again some day in life.
My identity may change with time…
I may not get time to realize it… I may not get time to change it.
I may forget... Who am I?

Life =f(time,space)

Everything changes with time…the life is controlled by time and space… which defines the beginning and end of a life..

Life =f(time,space)

What ever we get and what ever we achieve is defined by the time and the space…

Everything exists within a time limit and space. Even if we want we can’t expand the space nor can we increase the time... Our wants and desires are always much more above the limits... But we get limited by our action.. We are responsible for our own action..

If we wish we can shift the time within the space limit... We can not stop the time.. We cant go back to the past.. But we can go ahead of time to change the frame of life… present is the moment of time that we are experiencing without understanding the past and the future…each moment is getting past.. Each moment was the future.. We never count the time with the moments.. We count it with days and months and years… we never documented our actions... We never documented our thoughts. the time is a space.. We filled up the space with our action... the time get pass and the space get filled up with this action… what we get is the out come this combination.. What we do is in align with our previous action… at any point of time we can change our action according to our wish... if we can understand the simple philosophy of this time, space and action.. We are not controlled by anything else... We are controlled by our action... Our thoughts... Which is again comes from the space before us in the past or ahead of us in future… again our can be controlled by someone else if we cant control it… we always let our space shared by many people… again our thoughts get controlled by many thoughts… which in a way control our life… though we say we are born to win.. we never understand what does it mean .. how can we win… we can change the future if we can control the present .. if we can control our space and our time…

(contd)

An Encounter with happiness

I was not aware of the day... for me it was just another day away from home…

I woke up at 12:30 pm and still doesn’t feel like to got out of bed... around at 4:30 pm finally I got up from bed to do some saaf safai of room.. as a part of ritual followed during diwali. After completing everything I was not feeling like to go anywhere but I had promised to visit my relatives place… their home is in chembur which is far away from where I am staying in khar. I managed some how to prepared myself mentally… still I was not feeling like to go anywhere. For the first time in Mumbai I traveled by city bus… I took the bus from khar to bandra and then from bandra to chembur naka… thanx to the person sittin near to me in the bus, who guided me the root to reach my relatives place… I took a auto rickshaw from chembur naka to go near to ashis theatre… on the way I thought of to take some sweets.. as it was the diwali occasion… I asked the rickshaw wala to stop at a sweet shop , which was too crowded. It took some time for me to get the sweets…. I don’t know what came to my mind at that time.. I told the guy to packed all the sweets except one.. that I took in my hand and gave it to the rikshaw wala and wished him “happy diwali”… that guy get suddenly changed.. he started smiling and got excited… I was amazed.. he then started giving thanx to me… he told that since last 8 years he is driving auto rickshaw and no one had ever wished him and offered him a sweet… I could feel his happiness and feelings… I started feeling good within me… I realized it is diwali.. I could hear the sounds of crackers… I started enjoing the lights in the sky…

May be for the first time in last 8 year he got the feel of Diwali... It does not cost me anything … I also enjoyed the moment … I felt the satisfaction in me...

In this life we are so much busy doing many things that we never get time to recognize others… who are not our colleagues in office nor our partners in business… but they are the people who are also the part of our life in some way…

If the world is too small to explore then i know many people to understand my existence. But for me the world is not a small place to experience its limitation. How much i move my steps towards a height to view the world,i find the spoiled paths of mine towards the destruction of a life, that does not have any proof of existence. Only the steps behind me that i left through the mobilizing space during certain time shows the presence of a life. is it a review or an ongoing scene... that still struggling to proof it self for its truth.

Life Is A Quote...

Sitting alone in the office… I am feeling nostalgic. It seems the whole world is gone to their home to celebrate diwali with their nearer and dearer… what the hell I am doing here... What I am getting from now.... even if I dream I can’t reach my home to celebrate this day…

Looking at my cell phone… I am waiting for some one to call...Some one to send sms… waiting for some one to send mail... I don’t know for whom I am waiting… I know at this time no one will want to disturb me… but I want to get disturb today…

Today the phones are not ringing frequently… may be everyone knows that no one will be here… still some phones are ringing... may be the calls are from their homes to wish happy diwali… I used to avoid attending calls at this time… today I wish to get a call...

Sitting alone like a poor kid… I remember one quote of Mother Teresa:

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.”

Again I remember someone has stated that:

“We're born alone, we live alone, and we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.”
………The meaning is so in-depth.

Today in my experience I can feel someone’s wisdom… may be that is why some one has said “Life is a Quote.”

Let the world celebrate Diwali… I will enjoy the Lights of their happiness

In Search Of Perfection... Long way to Go

I never knew that I will be here today. The journey that I made till now was never planned by me… But when I look back in steps I found it is me who created this path to reach here. Each step is linked with the other. I had made all the decisions in my life directly or indirectly. I was responsible for creating the situations where I seek others advise….it was never others decision... it was me.
Today I find the life interesting… It is not bounded by any system…. Any rule…Any culture…
It’s always me who crafted the boundary lines… It’s me who crafted the shape of my life… I learned some thing from each mistakes and from each steps… I then modified my lines accordingly… today I find it was not just a modification, it was adjustment to the change according to the need of that time… Taking the whole pictures and situations I found the reason behind everything was the unawareness by me about the consequences about the situations… It was because the lack of communication between me and myself... I had never asked questions to myself before acting…. I had never given a second thought to my words… Today I found myself is like an organization and I am still not organized. In my past I crafted myself to be a perfect… But in this space what is perfect? Who define Perfection? There are no specific dimensions for it. It is all about understanding yourself. “Why, How and Who” lies within individuals… It is never tough to be an idealistic… it is always tough to maintain it. If I wish to grow in life then I have to decide the dimensions of my growth. The growth is never one-dimensional... It is always in multi dimensions and it’s only me who can craft the proportion of growth in each dimension. Now I don’t believe if anyone says that Money and happiness never comes together. It is an individualistic experience… so what matters is the individual. I am responsible for my cause…Because I didn’t have a clear definition for me... Though I had a vision... I didn’t have a clear mission for me… I had only my belief with me… my belief on Destiny.
Destiny???
May be some day again I get time to define this word